when u feel lonely.....

Its been a long day today.... sometimes i would ask myself, do i really need to live like this in whole life? although i know i will be fighting for my business. but its not the same, its juz something that related to ur heart, to ur soul. i tried to find anything to make me happy, make me fun, but its cure less. i watch back a movie series-家好月圓. i dunno bout u all but it makes me feel like i wanna to be apart of them, to have a good family like them. but reality isn't that good... juz hope that i would have a moment like this, even juz a min. it might be ridiculous, but when i watch a touching scene, seriously i brought down my tears...

Is it a very hard to have a happy family?

Does it cares?

I've been that alone since im 15... maybe yes, but no.. cos on and off i still have some frens around me... actually i scared to be alone cos i hope that have a person taht knows me alot. been in a relationship but its hard cos when ur heart is being broke by others then hosei liao... u won't believe in gals anymore.... i would like to find someone but juz the feeling and the shadow keep telling me don't... m not emo, if ur alone then u will know that nobody is hearing ur feelings, ur voice, ur true heart... sometimes u feel like want to hug somebody badly, cried on them... guys is like this, they are strong in outside but is weak in inside so gals pls, be take care of them and give them some care cos they need somebody to care and love with.... anyway, when it will be me? haiz..